Hello. My name is Ryan. I write poetry and love to sing, though I'm not very good at it. I am one of the largest nerds (Nerdfighters!) on this planet, but I still have the ability to carry on normal conversation with those less "exposed" to my favorite things. I can solve a 3x3x3 Rubik's Cube in 46 seconds, though I still consider that slow, and I can solve a 4x4x4 though I have never timed myself. I rarely post anything on here anymore, and never posted a "lot" anyways, but I DO want this to slowly become what my mind is on a day to day basis. I realize that this goal is ultimately impossible and it is ridiculous to even attempt it, but I will anyway.
if you ever even read these, I wanted you to know that. Sure, it didnt have to happen, and I wish it didnt. Sure, my life will be drastically different if things dont change once again. Sure, I will miss you more than the air on this earth, but I will NEVER take anything back. I can’t believe that happened… The things you have done to me and been forgiven for… well, at least halfway forgiven for, and you are going to react like so to such a small mess? How dare you. I hope you read this and I hope you think. Think long and hard. It does wonders for me, see if you can deal with this after you truly understand what just happened. You were the one. You were everything. Go back to him if you wish. I wont mind. My life will never be whole again anyways. I can feel it slip from me as I type.
Live this life through, and when it is done, you must find me. You must tell me:
Was it worth it?
2 years ago
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